ma buddy

i got a phone call from my buddy tht i know since college. she was busy with her a year old baby boy and every piece of word will not missing from talking abt her small one. was like her before when she was not really understand my situation at that moment. then i realise. . what goes around will come around. haha. there is another few days tht i shud start packing my stuff but i dont think that makes me eager to do so. my life was full with packed and unpacked and to do it again was not up to my enjoyment. what i really hope is tht this contract will end soon and i will make all my plan soon. then. . it will be like seat relax and enjoy for the rest of the ride in my life. uhhh. . cant wait for tht moment. im getting 40th anyway. shud settle down soon no matter what.

still going on..

it's a bless if u know everything is organise and confirm, unfortunately it's not like that. been on stand by really ruin one's life and make things miserable. wish and hope is just an illusion. what a pity to a small boy who crave for loves and attentions . but life seems to have lots of scarification. we cant win for everything we need tho. i was with my room mate @ motiara once. she seems so lovely but deep inside her eyes i can see a lots of pain . been losing someone close to heart change her tremendously. but yes. . am thinking of her from time to time. both of us are in the same boat. stories along the journey will stay on my mind whether it's the lovely one or extremely sad, it somehow changed me to who i am rite now. i wish hope and pray. . that am doing my best even am always fails to do so. to love and be loved is the best thing happen in life tho sometime there's a shadow that we don't know if it is for real or otherwise. He knows best.