am getting old

i hope i don't forget but it always happened. how am i going to explain to one if I promise to do things for them and yet i forgot to do that. what on earth this thing can happen to me? so, do you think, if someone got punished because of my forgetfulness. . what shall i get?  will apologise accepted? will they be my best friend again? argggghhh . sorry folks. thing just happened. and i to be blamed.

dnd

 i got stomach upset.  ouch! 

Insincere Friendship

I treated him so nice coz we have few same race in the co. ...one upon a time, he suddenly knock on my room n ordered me to let him place his stuffs in my hand carry bag ..I not even have a chance to reject him then he already walk away...the most silly thing, I was carrying my bag all the way in my trip n my lovely colleague was helping me to carry also..I was pretty touched ...this so call buddy not even intend to give a hand despite his stuffs are in my bag..how's ridiculous isn't ....I must be calm for this, I forgive n forget... But another issue again till I decided to cut him off from my buddies lis, I was worrying that he  couldn't make it for the duty, I had checked the schedule n text him the updated info..he didn't reply...I was worrying he missed out...next day I called him, thanks god he answered my call..unfortunately, he told me that he n my brother had  been removed from my team ..I was shocked ..put it on this way, if I don't called him I wouldn't know he has been removed n he is worried I ruin his perfect schedule 

Surprisingly,  a week later I received  his call ...he wastrying to be nice by telling me my future team schedule will be a bit tiring ...n he tried to convince me to join his current team ..I knew his intention but I told him that I got 1 sweetie n 1 buddy ...wherever they go then they will be counted on me ...eventually I rejected his so call "kindness"...it's obvious but yet he realized I had figured out "insincere friendship"

'hypocrite & selfish'

i got a called from a "fren" asking if i am willing to mutual with another team even tho' she hate to have me in her very own team. well,  if i am in her shoes, i will think a thousand times before making a call to someone u so called "fren".

then came another "fren" texting me wondering about my current team if i am in the company of the best people. it was easy. my reply was a definite yes since i have no crisis with anyone i worked with. as i remembered correctly, she is a nice lass with sweet words who once used to ask me to arrange for a swap between us so that she can be in her favourite team. it was then but maybe she had forgotten tht am not a kid anymore. i know the game.

i hate to know that one I called "fren" is actually just a person tht i know and only a colleague to work with. so.. there goes the frenship.
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welcome to bbm live update

today.. i would like to do an opening ceremony for my blogspot live update direct from... my bbm. ^-^

exploring the world technology only a bit later from others but at least something rather than nothing huh

thks to my darling childhood fren who willing to assist me where all this while always donno how to do it plus always no time to explore this itsy bitsy IT on another word me the IT idiot. *cool*

lurve u habibti muackssss xoxxoxo

sign,
ceo of junichee ^-^
sending now. hoping this 2nd time will be successful. *fuh**

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i hate it but i lurve it. . . .?!

its so fake. plastic. mask. i hate living in this kind of world.  but here you are.  with ur own people! salute to multicultural nationalities where life are so harmony compare to this.

i love my flying buddy.  we have known each other more than 10 yrs ago.  she still the best mate i've ever had.  the only thing i cant  stand is the aircon.  she claim tht she is european so now tho i hates my own people but guess i love the superb climate here! hmmm. .  am kinds of complicated isnt it? 

colourful day

in the same day surprisingly we can see two things differently. or perhaps many.  how fast the true colours shows is unbelievable.  two person was closely talking like never ending story and yet when one is out for something, the other one whispering the weakness of another.  i shud now walk slowly and just whisper instead of run and laugh loudly.  that's where am staying rite now.  i cant just hide and play safe but need to show up and do some activities so tht everyone can see my appearance and then i'll be gone with my  sweet little bb and lappy.

tonite am gonna to fly again. . . i cant even open my eyes but this happening frens calling to lepaking and chit chatting.  there goes my day.

gossipping anyone?

someone told me many stories abt people tht i knew.  some story reminded me of a culture long ago before i left them behind me when i shifted far away from all this bullshit.  now the same culture is coming back to haunt me since i decided to work with a local company and to be based in my home country.  someone's told me - quote" u should get used to it and we cant stop people from talking and gossiping". . .well,  thx for ur two cents but thx and still no thx for gossipping others.

there are times when a friend of mine is about to tell a story then they decided not to finish the conversation or just dont feel like telling you . . which in turn leaving you hanging mid-way, wondering how the hell the story was gonna end!

here come ur no gossipping motto

a torn flowers

a lady came down the stairs one fine day and shouted to me with a hello.  thot y was tht.  she was looking for her partner at this hour. . an arabic mixed blood lady, tall and sexy. now, it is almost a trend and all this kind of things seems acceptable by all.  i wonder how my great great grandparents would say if this things happened during their time.  true, that they seems lovely.  they call u sweetheart, they care for u and may be they might even be better than ur real partner.  ouch. . i mean others. . not mine.  mine is always the best as always. therefore i love, miss and need my soulmate all the times. .  i love u sweeheart.  my love for u will nvr change today tomorrow and forever.  nite2 love, nite2 all.

what colours u love the most?

what's the best colour in da world?  some said purple. . others say white. .  well. it depends. why tht colours love u so much may depend to what kind of person u are.   some said rainbow will be the best.  then u know how varieties this kind of person can be ;-)

well.  i gtg.  eat well and enjoy.  tho eating is never my priority @ all.  can u guess what colour is for a person like me will be?  chow. .

ma buddy

i got a phone call from my buddy tht i know since college. she was busy with her a year old baby boy and every piece of word will not missing from talking abt her small one. was like her before when she was not really understand my situation at that moment. then i realise. . what goes around will come around. haha. there is another few days tht i shud start packing my stuff but i dont think that makes me eager to do so. my life was full with packed and unpacked and to do it again was not up to my enjoyment. what i really hope is tht this contract will end soon and i will make all my plan soon. then. . it will be like seat relax and enjoy for the rest of the ride in my life. uhhh. . cant wait for tht moment. im getting 40th anyway. shud settle down soon no matter what.

still going on..

it's a bless if u know everything is organise and confirm, unfortunately it's not like that. been on stand by really ruin one's life and make things miserable. wish and hope is just an illusion. what a pity to a small boy who crave for loves and attentions . but life seems to have lots of scarification. we cant win for everything we need tho. i was with my room mate @ motiara once. she seems so lovely but deep inside her eyes i can see a lots of pain . been losing someone close to heart change her tremendously. but yes. . am thinking of her from time to time. both of us are in the same boat. stories along the journey will stay on my mind whether it's the lovely one or extremely sad, it somehow changed me to who i am rite now. i wish hope and pray. . that am doing my best even am always fails to do so. to love and be loved is the best thing happen in life tho sometime there's a shadow that we don't know if it is for real or otherwise. He knows best.

no manners

hola. today i start blogging again, after a very long time.  that's becoz i need to clear my mind from many thousand things unsaid.

 first of all, how on this earth a person want others to give our respect when they have no manners at all? how shud i?

well, they are FAMILY members after all.   when u come to me for any help, i will.  only bear in mind, u r NEVER my priority anymore - fullstop