still going on..

it's a bless if u know everything is organise and confirm, unfortunately it's not like that. been on stand by really ruin one's life and make things miserable. wish and hope is just an illusion. what a pity to a small boy who crave for loves and attentions . but life seems to have lots of scarification. we cant win for everything we need tho. i was with my room mate @ motiara once. she seems so lovely but deep inside her eyes i can see a lots of pain . been losing someone close to heart change her tremendously. but yes. . am thinking of her from time to time. both of us are in the same boat. stories along the journey will stay on my mind whether it's the lovely one or extremely sad, it somehow changed me to who i am rite now. i wish hope and pray. . that am doing my best even am always fails to do so. to love and be loved is the best thing happen in life tho sometime there's a shadow that we don't know if it is for real or otherwise. He knows best.