colourful day

in the same day surprisingly we can see two things differently. or perhaps many.  how fast the true colours shows is unbelievable.  two person was closely talking like never ending story and yet when one is out for something, the other one whispering the weakness of another.  i shud now walk slowly and just whisper instead of run and laugh loudly.  that's where am staying rite now.  i cant just hide and play safe but need to show up and do some activities so tht everyone can see my appearance and then i'll be gone with my  sweet little bb and lappy.

tonite am gonna to fly again. . . i cant even open my eyes but this happening frens calling to lepaking and chit chatting.  there goes my day.

gossipping anyone?

someone told me many stories abt people tht i knew.  some story reminded me of a culture long ago before i left them behind me when i shifted far away from all this bullshit.  now the same culture is coming back to haunt me since i decided to work with a local company and to be based in my home country.  someone's told me - quote" u should get used to it and we cant stop people from talking and gossiping". . .well,  thx for ur two cents but thx and still no thx for gossipping others.

there are times when a friend of mine is about to tell a story then they decided not to finish the conversation or just dont feel like telling you . . which in turn leaving you hanging mid-way, wondering how the hell the story was gonna end!

here come ur no gossipping motto

a torn flowers

a lady came down the stairs one fine day and shouted to me with a hello.  thot y was tht.  she was looking for her partner at this hour. . an arabic mixed blood lady, tall and sexy. now, it is almost a trend and all this kind of things seems acceptable by all.  i wonder how my great great grandparents would say if this things happened during their time.  true, that they seems lovely.  they call u sweetheart, they care for u and may be they might even be better than ur real partner.  ouch. . i mean others. . not mine.  mine is always the best as always. therefore i love, miss and need my soulmate all the times. .  i love u sweeheart.  my love for u will nvr change today tomorrow and forever.  nite2 love, nite2 all.

what colours u love the most?

what's the best colour in da world?  some said purple. . others say white. .  well. it depends. why tht colours love u so much may depend to what kind of person u are.   some said rainbow will be the best.  then u know how varieties this kind of person can be ;-)

well.  i gtg.  eat well and enjoy.  tho eating is never my priority @ all.  can u guess what colour is for a person like me will be?  chow. .

ma buddy

i got a phone call from my buddy tht i know since college. she was busy with her a year old baby boy and every piece of word will not missing from talking abt her small one. was like her before when she was not really understand my situation at that moment. then i realise. . what goes around will come around. haha. there is another few days tht i shud start packing my stuff but i dont think that makes me eager to do so. my life was full with packed and unpacked and to do it again was not up to my enjoyment. what i really hope is tht this contract will end soon and i will make all my plan soon. then. . it will be like seat relax and enjoy for the rest of the ride in my life. uhhh. . cant wait for tht moment. im getting 40th anyway. shud settle down soon no matter what.

still going on..

it's a bless if u know everything is organise and confirm, unfortunately it's not like that. been on stand by really ruin one's life and make things miserable. wish and hope is just an illusion. what a pity to a small boy who crave for loves and attentions . but life seems to have lots of scarification. we cant win for everything we need tho. i was with my room mate @ motiara once. she seems so lovely but deep inside her eyes i can see a lots of pain . been losing someone close to heart change her tremendously. but yes. . am thinking of her from time to time. both of us are in the same boat. stories along the journey will stay on my mind whether it's the lovely one or extremely sad, it somehow changed me to who i am rite now. i wish hope and pray. . that am doing my best even am always fails to do so. to love and be loved is the best thing happen in life tho sometime there's a shadow that we don't know if it is for real or otherwise. He knows best.

no manners

hola. today i start blogging again, after a very long time.  that's becoz i need to clear my mind from many thousand things unsaid.

 first of all, how on this earth a person want others to give our respect when they have no manners at all? how shud i?

well, they are FAMILY members after all.   when u come to me for any help, i will.  only bear in mind, u r NEVER my priority anymore - fullstop